Archive for November, 2011

defining hazes tht fades

Posted: November 24, 2011 in Uncategorized


the truth,

i choose to NEVER tell my feelings to the one’s tht i liked ,even how stressful the situation and the events might be.

as simple as a philophobia who realize his phobia, and choose to not cure it,


i will remain true to myself, be as naive as possible,as frank as possible, even it might make me somehow hateful to many.

i have family, i have best friends. i have acquaintances. so, having some enemies and haters is a sign tht i am still living a normal life as a human being.

i try to make things simple, while realizing my mind always break when i study things. because i am a curios geek.
quite a perfectionist when it comes to results. somehow, i hate teamworks.

i laugh to the fullest when im at it, and hardly sulk and rant over things. since i choose to avoid circumstances tht didnt fall to my responsibility yet, since once im into it, i will adher to the weight so much, tht somehow, not good to me, and to those whos somehow related.

i try to understand myself, since i’ve stopped to be dependent on others, as well as some temperaments to define me, and CREATE ‘me’. i choose how, what im gonna be.

fashion?im into eminem and hyde(laruku) .

i have dreams. i have nightmares. best to best, i have faith, and theres place for me to seek if i crave for knowledge.

LOVE is subtle.

fact: i dont flirt much with those tht i liked. i choose not to. it will break the cycle of neutrality of her personel and attitude. i praise girls just by their looks. no other feelings. those living beings called girls tht i praised, simply  iare His creation tht comparable with some sportsmen tht i liked, because of their sportsmanship.

i jot this to remind myself. if u read, dont mind if u dont mind, if u mind , i have no other words than thx, for caring a little for me.



For someone who keep on listening to new sounds, but then hardly memorize one, but remember all, to be able to decipher this mind of mine? well done.

oh, what a wonderful blessing from God to let me jot this 7th reflections that come from my eyes.

Ive read some articles about earth, politics and some conspicuous fact on veda’s the book of the hinduism, as well as some excerpts about the gospels, mark, mathew luke and john, not to forget the letters by st.Paul.

comparing such with several fallacies come from several renown hadith, i simply learned some new things about life, and again ‘love’ which that i will embrace it 3 and a half yrs from now.

peace be upon him, our beloved Prophet Muhammad.

discussing some matters about myself with others which i never know ,met and have no mutuality at all from any kind of connection medium, is cliche , for your type, pal.

i am me,
not once more,
not again,
not finally.

i am me that can’t exactly will only be me, until the day i am united with all the other me.

Currently, im the 21st me. and next april, ill be the 24th me. comparing all this me, wont result in new me. reconciling some identities out of peculiarity,

ifs, ifs. idk.